Wednesday, March 25, 2009
The littlest things that take me there.
dont know why, dad havent sent me the pictures we took in Laos and Thailand cause he transferred all to his com due to the lack of space. well, in the trip, i finally know how a real couple should feel like, should love, give, take quarrel. but still remain as one.
No, im not saying my parents are a perfect couple. But imagine the distance between my dad and my mum. they get to meet every few months, and only for days at a time? otherwise, they only talk online every night.
Yet, they can still remain as though they were before my dad left. this lets me wonder, does the simplest things really make my mum happy? she keeps telling me, not to be so materialistic, which lets me think. How much does it take for her to not miss my dad, day and night?
I'm really thankful that they are my parents. though i have done many disappointing things, hurtful things, even venting my anger on them, they absorb it all. and tell me what have i done wrong in the end. they never gave up on me, even though i have attempted rubbish things time and again.
my dad and mum. :)
Maybe its just god trying to tell me, i dont know much about relationship. i am INSECURE, obviously easily JEALOUS and extremely CO-DEPENDENT. My teacher once said, why complain about other people when you should be complaining about yourself first?
I dont hate my teacher, nor do i think the sudden outburst is unfair, though maybe other than academic things are not so relevant. But this makes me think, how much do we really complain about each other?
I only know, i complain to myself that i am fat, about maybe twenty times a day, every time looking upon a reflection. This, the exterior, is all i am concerned about. i shouldn't, but yet i still am. I should really reflect. and stop ridiculously fantasizing.
Labels: time to wake up now.
what we could have been, 10:23:00 PM.
