Tuesday, March 18, 2008
oh man. i feel like crying.
i dunno wads wrong with me. people is just being friendly to me, and i kena so touched. i should wake up. its me giving myself false hope. its no use. why am i so nuts? i thought i liked ... alot. then u became friendly to me, and suddenly the crush on u for two years came back. should i let u noe that i like u once again? im so afraid that our friendship would come to an end. i am sooo confused, so mixed up about who i like now, but seeing u so often, and messaging u so often made me very happy. but this happiness does not belong to me. oh no. i must not have false hope. i dun wanna get hurt again. but now i really wanna tell u. shout out to this world. because i love you. if u ever see this. sorry.. please dun act awkward around me if u see this. at most treat me an invisible. i just need to pour out my feelings, so im writing it here. i guess i have to learn how to never love again. my past have hurt me so, and yet here i am, feeling crazy over u. i must let go.
i dunno wads wrong with me. people is just being friendly to me, and i kena so touched. i should wake up. its me giving myself false hope. its no use. why am i so nuts? i thought i liked ... alot. then u became friendly to me, and suddenly the crush on u for two years came back. should i let u noe that i like u once again? im so afraid that our friendship would come to an end. i am sooo confused, so mixed up about who i like now, but seeing u so often, and messaging u so often made me very happy. but this happiness does not belong to me. oh no. i must not have false hope. i dun wanna get hurt again. but now i really wanna tell u. shout out to this world. because i love you. if u ever see this. sorry.. please dun act awkward around me if u see this. at most treat me an invisible. i just need to pour out my feelings, so im writing it here. i guess i have to learn how to never love again. my past have hurt me so, and yet here i am, feeling crazy over u. i must let go.
Labels: love is such a painful thing that one have to live for.
what we could have been, 8:05:00 PM.
